I guess..

.. I was a bit inappropriate, sorry.

Is anyone upset at me?  Sorry.

Apology

If anyone is mad to read this.. I just guess I think I shouldn't be silent and that I've done some justifying in deciding what to post, maybe to regret later, but am getting better.

Problem

No one should be prowling me.

Sorry..

..Well, I don't like these annoying hair-graying messages.

Excuse me?

I find it a bit intruding to change my lifestyle because I forgot to record someone cuz I was having fun doing something else but under the influence it should be transmitted online.. just didn't make it, sorry..  Why are people from Pennsylvania being such prim snoots-and I like being called a snoot so I dunno what else to say..  All the singers I know are very accomplished people and have grudges on me via online following yet never speaking with me.

I am sorry, but I cannot do something like this to make it up to you.

A New Turn

I don't know how I can possibly rectify past posts on Johnny Depp tonight.  I don't think we should get it out to make someone feel better when it's inappropriate.  I just feel that that's also why I'm not deleting my old posts, too.  I am just tired and hungry and don't know what.

Frustration

I just get the feeling Ellen isn't perfect and so didn't just have a good time but went along with sinners and dug a hole to Hell LOL jk.

Issue

If someone is older and makes you cozy does not mean they have hypnosis over you.  I also am being annoyed or threatened that I deserve no one to have real feelings toward me and that after loving famous people so much in the end there's always a trap.  I don't mean meeting them but moreso just something that happens.

Sin

So, if you think you have nothing to do but deal with children you detest, you can't just do big things like date, marry, and have kids, just to annoy people.  Let's get it out and make sure that's not how things will be.  They probably wanna have a star.  It really doesn't work like that with the past failures.

Gaping

Why would my dad say I'm in trouble with Ellen?  It was the noises as to the blog and otherwise outer pressure.  Why I cursed?  Well, obviously, I don't know, but I never did it to hurt people.  I mean not her.  Didn't go over the top.

I just feel it's rubbed in.  I am posting about it cuz it's like what?  In trouble with Ellen DeGeneres?  She's not a disciplinarian.

Problem

What do you think about people joking around and getting close to me leaving concrete symbols calling me a nigger and threatening what they'll treat my kids like-  (not looking for a boyfriend|husband, not having kids now.)

Question

Why did Ellen seem so mad that you people set up something like a pizza club nearby for me to go to, she kept threatening you guys to pull me away from her.  I thought she had invited people to watch her show.  Not sure what was so angering her, but she seemed so downcast.  The point was still that she doesn't really want me to watch all the time and might pull away times.  Fridays she's free and doesn't want to spill into the weekend.  I can watch though in my room.  I mean, maybe that's the day I don't watch unless I feel okay or so she can feel a time when someone like me is not watching cuz she is so attentive..  I have a feeling it's something a bit different.  I wonder exactly why, just that I've had enough of her attention? so don't watch then?  I tried to occupy myself otherwise but still catch the show like I would any show.  I tried to get in a movie, tried to go to school.  Still trying to keep up but not be like inserting myself online all day like doing nothing.

Problem

Maybe, they wanted my hair white to suck up to them.

Problem

In that video I posted, I looked most French-Canadian, but Tim Burton cut me off and stole my goods.  I want it back.  I'm in Orlando.  Maybe for too long.  I'm trying to get in a movie.

Issue

I was thinking about how much I loved my dad and how he's busy, but I thought I would be got at for feeling something good about myself while others don't-!

Problem

They are referring to me being ugly while still in school.

Question

I think Ellen wants me to do something, but I already said sorry and it was something that no one else puts up with.  She was mad at me from the start.

She wants me to always feel guilty cuz when I stop acting bad she thinks something was wrong with me and doesn't know why I was upset - cuz I think I have a right to do what I want and wasn't starting anything, merely talking about what others always do, nothing much else to talk about that comes to mind.  Oh look a fish!  What?

Problem

I can't go through life like this, always feeling wrong and Ellen always feeling right, though she should feel right, herself!

Problem

I still feel stimulated but in a wrong way.

Problem

Why is it worth it to insult me and give me something to talk about?  Someone said no one I like is available to touch me, bleh.  I don't want people I like even less touching me instead that I would not allow.  This was not like this before.  You think I'm some ragged type of hermit.